Monthly Archives: April 2016

Sorting out a brain dump overloaded information blockage

If you have scanned, or want to read all this post and are wondering what it’s is all about… ‘this is my brain releasing a a few blockages’.

I awoke, got a pad and pen and write down what was coming through. Turned out the light. And attempted to sleep again. And more came, the cyce=le repeated itself. Until finally I was allowed to sleep for a few hours. Not having a clock in my room there is no time span other than sometime during the night of the 23 / 24th of April 2016 this occurred.
Having gone to bed about 9 pm, this could have been anytime.

Usually, when I wake having had an early night, I simply get up and start my day. This time was different, though. On past experiences had I not got a pen and pad then the synario would have repeated itself night after night. The blockage would have been causing distress and frustration. Nothing would be able to get completed again.

There was one other thing that happened as I again come through to the awakening stage more towards the morning. And that is another letter alotgether. There was one part of powerful twenty words I just could not make out. I now refuse to wear my wreading glasses when this brain opening occurs as I usually forget to take them off. Fall asleep then needs the frames realigned. A lesson well learned and I am thankful the reading glasses are titanian framed!

Somewhere at the begining, I was starting to reline the lines into an ordter.I had moved one line then though no write this letter as worlds in the sentences comes out.

On the night of the 24th, I went to bed early. The brain deluge had finally taken me over into the “Come one its sleep requirement time”. Understand that the brain goes to work during night time. Simply put “Autistic  people need their sleep.”  We have far higher hearing and feeling capacities than people realize.  Turn the machines off.  Even the apparent low noise frequency things Muse zappers.  These are screaming in our heads. As to partner relationships.  If the partner is totally trusted, we submerge ourselves within their cocoon of protection. The same trust as when a baby or child comes to the parent to be with them.  So that sleep is just there.  The monsters [ noises / sights] are held at bay with the beating of the heart and an arm around you.

I have no clock in my room as the lights annoy me. And I can sleep with a wind-up clock… when I remember to wind it up. My brain will wake me up in order to be ready for an appointment or training time. As long as I ‘set’ that it works! And usually before an alarm will start rigning by 5 minutes before.

Now that this brain deluge has been typed up the send copy will be altered around with and the sections within compartmentalized into to do list requirements. When I first began doing the DEA courses I had lots of Autism related meltdowns and overloaded sleep patterns in the middle of the day and at odd hours. In fact, I missed whole courses that I had paid for because of not knowing to do what I have now done above. Let it out. Instead, I would just go back to what had been happening before and continue to try and get information in. And that cycle would then take months to understand. In fact, there are times when I wonder where the key information has jumped up from and then remember where it was from 23 months ago. What this means in practice is the questions now being asked by myself are more focused and inline with other people speech patterns. This is called learning the language of the people wh already have learned. Understand plus speak the same language, and further understanding and comprehension does occur. The transition is one that international exchange students feel. Suddenly they are dreaming in the language of the host country. Then there is a transition time of not knowing who you are not where you are coming from. Homesickness starts to come forward.

A balance is struck when this pridime has you knowing both the past you, your present you and accepting knowing the future you. And this is the point where I am currently. Connecting my past, accepting my ‘Me’ as I am now and living my future. Simple I have left my “I believe this will happen” to I lknow this is happening as I am living it right now. Welcome to my Alternative Digital Lifestyle creation happening.

What I do have though is a memory of when I was a teen ager studying. The days notes would be re written in shorted in a compartmentalized form. Over the weekend, these again would be condensed. At the end of the term these third level notes were shortened and compartmentalized yet again. By the end of the year, all the information was there. Exams were sat, and the challenge was to work out what the question was
asking.

On the 24th in the later afternoon, this very short video was https://www.facebook.com/nuonrg/posts/10154156991188270 was viewed.
Write How to list

*Redirect the pages to posts for now. Backdate posts into the Calendar of posts

* Go back to Dees email and check out what I wrote
* revamp for specific niches and place each target audience on each specific neiche
* Finish plug ins and widgets on allsites
* Hootsuite the links

* Connect SLQ and D+FDP to suite and back.
* Upload FB page into each Web page

* Create a picture header in for parts
the pxs needed ate 1635 x 745?
The picture programs do not create this size, therefore, create four parts 410 wide x 745 long [ comprising of [2 [ part and C] x 820] then [[1/2of 820] x 745 depth part A/aa and C/cc]

* YourTubePlayer: talk about how this is handy for newsletters
Net = disturbance.
creation and from community dev ownership
* Understanding of goal* Importance of people alignment with your dream.
* Skills and confidence by falling forward
Training
Grants
Lucky forward
Find results
Write were all susceptible to ‘Bing’ manipulated. Difference is that now it took one year instead of 5 the only t get back on feet and change site [ tell other posts x 2 –> collapse of site and [name supplied]  assistance] how rules posted.
Later tells of catfishing.

Have restriction and now not knowing stumped me earlier on web design and blogging.
How WP 101 has now themes
call to [Name supplied]
—->< suggest to find there its important.

Steps included or start from new one and find there —>
Pages there the pages. Delete = 404. Not to loose ranking of previous page while you drive traffic to new page. Once new page has taken over in the ranking the delete old page that is redirected. This way does
not show up in Bing things[??}

Copy URL and if some one stuffed up then everyone suffers and is marketed down

Message to [Name supplied] re write.

How woke up and have thought flow [https://www.facebook.com/nuonrg/posts/10154156991188270]
know and track
pen and paper to bed
onto to do list
Stay in bed light goes on and wriote then light out til no more is there to come forth.
Enough not for me to get confused…. or distracted.

SFM Survey
Name visual alignment[ Like PN and GP.] Crazy things to do with picture of own.
Photo capture tool
Giff maker
Pod casts\Voice over ability

* Picture of site currently re pages
Formaly training this online community development need interest in
board creation [ like pinterest]
Website design
WP101
Blog Writing
Social Broadcasting
Advertisng team
Themes
Scheduling
dream to active
Photographs
People focused and talented to assist innet set up of neuro diversification
We sing, We rock.
Traun to release the ‘You Be Newbie.’
loose the mental weight and figuratively fly like a bird
Fine tune and organise the kayos.

Making out combined voices stand out and be heard. Add energy. We have to all get into the act and independantly work together [holacratically] to do this while remaking our selves. We all have a part to play. This is how the sites fit intogether
Letters exlain
A creative has skills and takents to do thngs with… find out the end result is eith using these.
Autism as a gift generaic view of people with gifts and groups of giftd.
Susan Lewis Marketing = how communities, carers, families, and organisation may fundraise, set up to find raine and provide avenues to explore and take on.
Autism Susan Lewis is for the autistic person themselves to find out how they may need to use this to have an independant life.
What is dne when
Step by step you will be encourages to start up to you to choose the thing and move through.
Mine worth to learn how to blog, affiliate market encompassed
video and picture
Organisation schedutes
to do list
Favorable participation crowds
Travels to meet new people
opening up
Sort out and release
Computer files
place to put them
Page speed focus through to Sandras comment
Only 1% noted release on all platforms.
Down
–> Facebook advertise when changed look holes thinking

Writing Aweber duplicate and change Broadcast and URL create
>Use their oomph and message same.
Need to microfinance.
Sorted out –> not so
Great feeling
Knows that I have authority about this and can share with the knowledge and understanding of someone who has gone through it.

Broken link checker is a great tool however the URLs are still picked up in My Tracking Stats.
Using tidy URL –> redirect.
Enables the URL to still be in system and broken URL reluctant other than previous UR: –> to change this through to normal Tidy URL redirect.

Some platforms divert went redirect tonight.
A stealth marketing training on the power of Tidy URL. YourTubePlayer, Graphix Creator and MyLead Bar
Relink Susan Lewis Marketing in the menu Area.
Sidebar these
Ask [name specified] or support what to do with banner when “My Thing” goes.
-> last time did change to cve4me –> caused collapse of site and DBL fixed and took back to basics!!

TidyURL everything back from start to finish. Aagain practiced.
Clean up mouse shit behind the curtains [Added: Please note here- the area has a mouse plague]
Create page ‘what it takes to freeze accounts family
no ask = this
the labor to swap
advertising
Knowing and skills
“Self”
Re-do the physical site map
Only put in once.
[release all links do a better one]
targeted to communicating looking for assistance
each post to link back to this page or post advertisement
[Aweber this list per topic]
Schedule sitemaps /ages into broadcasts in Aweber
FB page release and so forth
new posts
Give up yourself make way for changes.
Set your platform scheduled
follow the flow through of posts flow.
The gift of giving
redirects until someone [name specified] can show or I can find out how to remove from page displays
–> using code like basic page block.
Remaining permalink URL stop showing on header thing.
Picture need to be rerouted tidy URL – too as they are there somewhere
–> Get URL Tidy URL
Autistics make mistakes too
There’s a time and a place you take pen and paper to be.

Know that you will wake up and probably not have it there. However, the thoughts are coming one after the other = Grab pen and paper go back to bed. Know that as the brains absorb information from you will
down .be turning on the light and wrdown.turning off the light bete=ween writing and sleeping[ hopefully] Next day –> when finally this thought have slowed doewn. Go back to sleep. When you wake up
and no new releases are there then it is time to get up and start your day.
_ otherwise you will become distracted as these throughts will just keep unveiling themselves. The blockage you have been waiting for has finally happened again.

__> [marquis] Yes your brain wants answers to that thing area to next and concept formulas.

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Who has specific workaboe days calenadear.
Sread the around. When up to this date review progress re scheduled.
New date and Now date. Wroit=e comment New you and tidy URL

Ansalytical and compartive side is busy satisfied.
This method takes the pressure off the brain. Youre allowed to be human “today’
As is all that may happen and it may take all day to do.
Mind allowed a rest. Not fractured
A large task is broken into many smaller ones.
Each step completed celebrate and show. Write about it.
Make video
Create pictures
Review. You also have set review dates on whole project
ZTOA [added later: ? what this is]

Allows you to know the actions inviolved and therefore accept help to impro .
Join in conversation with authority and even show others. Ths gives you a cinversation that makes you ‘human’. People can follow these mentaly.
Step 3
Conversations New and Micro-conversations. Not the then the whole Bible. Word for world refinition
The check list of how toos though get more indepth which when planing events or teaching is terrific as the wholeness of training starts withan everyone of what will be the outcome by the end.
Followed with what are cimming in this lesson series. And to do we will be doing. people know the good and trustworthy. Play a role within that dream. Be coming ready for the transformation process is owned by ‘all’.
Which us why I ask of You to go through this link. View the voideo and arket its relevance Join the SFM precess.
As an Access Associate or Student , even an Elite these are your basic stepping stones.
Contact me on email susanlewis@susanlewismarketing.com
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Not if already a member.
Be honest with self anyway.
Untetone and lets work together in the open and onest way.
Benefiting all
Get them to the blin benefiting all.
Waych the videis
then membership
Think about the links available.
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Go through the modules
$pay 29.95 us
This will help you sort self out

Make a decission to stay where you are or to go further.

Up to you in that respect.
Nt ready —> Still contact me and that’s okay too.
Even as a basic member you still have access to trainings via SFM.
Very helpful and appropriate.
When you have done module two what have your dream workled out will do for you of aligned then you …with our circle of influence.
____________________

Today Anything Is Possible

Yes Definitely! Today Anything is possible. Look how far we came since humans were first walking the earth. The stars were there twinkling through the mists of time. Were our ancestors even looking towards the stars? Some were.

Over time stories were attached to these patterns in the sky.  Some looked. Others wondered why.

People traveled through the land using the stars as navigation tools. From the log that had fallen a wheel that rolled came. A cart and yoked oxen. A horse with a plow.

Gradually the people who sythed the fields being replaced with the thrashers. Then came the mechanical harversters plowing the fields in an day that were not even thought of way back then.

So the man went from picking the berries and fruits as they travelled to jamming in a quick five-second takeaway.

Where some people gave themselves up to quill and partment. Drawing the strange visions they saw in their head. Helicopters and submarines during Galileo’s time on earth. Einteins atom reseach as the father of the Atomic Age. Rutherford in New Zealand splitting the atom. Thomas Jefferson and the likes of Alexandea Graham Bell with his talk over the ocean via telephone. Lousis Paster with penecillian. Marie Curie…. Florence Nightengale

Tealsa harvesting the lightening and Thomas selling the rights to the electricity . Now with space age zipping by us the men walked on the moon. Moon stations are now being proposed. And one day a birth of the first moon baby. Will that child be of a ‘test tube and chamber creation’ or from born of the womb? How has the ‘Robo age’ that we are now as a human race enetering. Does this age give us more flexabiity as a person to move through and know the ‘why’ of why we are here. Has it become a case of do we even now care?

As man is now moving far from this Galaxy testing out the molecules, from far outer space, in a race to see if aliens are out there.

Yet, here on earth there is a growing momentum for people to become aware. To disregard the “naysayers with their hidden “I Do Not Care what they do out here”. To act and be proactive with seeking the questions as to “How can this be”. Clean Up Australia, recycle the corks, Earth Hour, clean up the oceans. To recycle is less of a thing than whay have the crappy plastics in the first place. The internet is making it so we now see how painful it is for a turtle to have a 12 inch straw removed form a nostral. The straw pulled out and cut off into small pieces . Just so it can breath as it should have been able too all that time. Whales asking divers to free them from nets even if all they have is a small pocket knife. The appreciation dances and tail flapping see for hours after just as a thank you because withut that trust the beautiful creature would have just hung there in the water crying as it was dying. Pulled down into the mess that we as humans have always created. One coke bottle, plastic bag and cigarette butt and straw at a time.

To act and be proactive with seeking the questions as to “How can this be”. Clean Up Australia, recycle the corks, Earth Hour, clean up the oceans. To recycle is less of a thing than whay have the crappy plastics in the first place. The internet is making it so we now see how painful it is for a turtle to have a 12 inch straw removed form a nostral. The straw pulled out and cut off into small pieces . Just so it can breath as it should have been able too all that time. Whales asking divers to free them from nets even if all they have is a small pocket knife. The appreciation dances and tail flapping see for hours after just as a thank you because withut that trust the beautiful creature would have just hung there in the water crying as it was dying. Pulled down into the mess that we as humans have always created. One coke bottle, plastic bag and cigarette butt and straw at a time.

The internet is making it, so we now see how painful it is for a turtle to have a 12-inch straw removed to form a nostril. The straw pulled out and cut off into small pieces. So that it can breathe as it should have been able too all that time. Whales are asking divers to free them from nets even if all they have is a small pocket knife. The appreciation dances and tail flapping see for hours after just as a thank you because without that trust the beautiful creature would have just hung there in the water crying as it was dying. Pulled down into the mess that we as humans have always created. One coke bottle, plastic bag and cigarette butt and straw at a time.

To act and be proactive with seeking the questions as to “How can this be”. Clean Up Australia, recycle the corks, Earth Hour, clean up the oceans. To recycle is less of a thing than what have the crappy plastics in the first place. The internet is making it, so we now see how tortures it is for a turtle to have a 12-inch straw removed to form a nostril. The straw pulled out and cut off into small pieces. So that it can breath as it should have been able too all that time. Whales are asking divers to free them from nets even if all they have is a small pocket knife. The appreciation dances and tail flapping see for hours after just as a thank you because without that trust the beautiful creature would have just hung there in the water crying as it was dying. Pulled down into the mess that we as humans have always created. One coke bottle, plastic bag and cigarette butt and straw at a time.

Yet not so long ago someone somewhere looked up and saw through the parting of the mists a place where there were tiny shining pin pricks in the dark of night and they wondered what, where, who, how, and asked the question as to ‘why’.

Sincerely

Susan

 

Contact me on susan@autismasagift.com

 

Alternatively susanlewis@susanlewismarketing for business-related assistance.

To Find A Balance Within

Amazingly over the last two years I am still walking. I flew off my push bike. Hit the ground hard and woke up some time later with the dog literally sitting on me.
Totally disorientated stood the bike up and walked it and the dog nearby up the hill to a friends shop.

She freaked out. Blood everywhere. Cleaned up and walked a while. Then rode the bike home and slept. Sometime in the afternoon, a friend called round. Woke me up banging on the bedroom windows. Dragged me off to the doctors. Who finally sent me for X-rays. Several ‘requests’ later.

I have a hazy memory of wanting  all this fuss to go away so that I could do some more of the online marketing course. Only thing was that the screen would not stay still for over a week. Besides, all round my head and ears hurt. Wearing glasses was a next to impossible achievement. Add to this that, I would wake up then falling off my chair. Often just resting on the floor and waking up some time later. The dog nearby. And at times sniffling into my ear with his wet nose.

This dog Sox, is very much like a companion dog. And currently were both on a diet. Why?

We have both put weight on. For me hitting just over the 15 kilos ‘point something’ this morning was the pits. The three years off and on before flying off the push bike in 2014 October 17th had been a big game changer. My whole attitude had changed. That time it was of finding out who I was. Where I was going and how I presented myself.

Suppose it could also be inclusive of the “empty nest syndrome’.

As such I was either riding the push bike or running in the pines along the nearby vehicle inspection tracks through the pines. Sox ‘herding the kangaroos’ !! Okay, apparently the 1/4 dingo that is in there was coming out. Cows or sheep were safe. They were boring.

When Sox was having his afternoon sleep I was in the local swimming pools and swimming. Got up to 2.5 km every time I hit the water. So being just about able to really fit into size ’14’ clothes was fun.

Recently I saw a picture that had two women on it. Both the same age. The first was a 74-year old body building champion. In a bikini. The second was a lady sitting forlornly looking out the window. The first was smiling at the achievement. The second had a far away look of hopelessness. That last one hit home. I had nursed people in these situations.

Yesterday a friend stated there was something that I had not faced. As I walked once again around with the muscles in my left calf pulling and really hurting I began to realise that the last time I had felt something like this pain was ‘the equivalent’ to when I would have been born. You see I had both feet ‘clubbed feet’ [a.k.a. Talipies] and both hips ‘congenital dislocating’.

In some cultures, my life would have been worth nothing. However in the New Zealand one my father, by law, had the last say. He invited me into his ‘home’. My mother was able to take me home.

I asked once was there ever a time that he had loved me. The answer was “as much as I could” Which is a weird answer until people look at that in context.

Being a child of the World WarII and in London during the bombing, only a few stories did he ever repeat. Those though stuck in my head. That’s the OCD part of my character sorting out and finding these things.

It took until recently to realise why they stayed in there . With the visual side of my Autism. The words my father was speaking painted in a picture. Rather like color by numbers systematic steps. Do some now of this colour and some later of that color. One day the whole picture may be complete enough to recognise the picture.

You see every one of us in my family has some form of the Autism Spectrum. Primarily hovering in and around the High Functioning Autism aspect.

At his answer the realization confirmed. My father too has Autism. And so the “As much as I could answer makes sense”. Also, the job he did as a policeman would have raised the walls with interpersonal relationships. Remember there was not after the case talk down. you either functioned and went to work. Or you were broken and unfit for work.

In a world that still to this day seeks perfectionism… by my father accepting me into his home he was accepting ‘me’. And therefore, I was perfect. Just like God made me to be.

Ans ‘therein’ lies the issue. First God, then my father, had ‘formally’ accepted me. It was up to me to accept me. After the car accident years later when there was no recognition of what and who that other person who was constantly there was for nearly 24 years later I did not know who I was. Therefore did not know to accept who I was. Mirrors and windows reflected off other people. I never was in any of the photos taken as I could not recognize the lady that I saw in the van [ 1991] just before starting the ignition. Moving the vehicle forward.

By total fluke, a photo was taken of me, by me. Now I was able to connect one action to the other. Later I wondered who that person was with the lost vacant eyes were in the photo I had taken of me. A week went by. And then another. Finally, I asked a friend in Germany who this woman was that kept getting in the way of me.

He was totally confused. Totally missing the point of what I was trying to find out. And then asked [aka yelled] in despite me this question ” who do you think it is?” That’s when he remembered through his own tiredness what I was I was trying to tell him. Sometimes I wonder about selective mutism popping up here and there.

Instructing me to get a mirror, we would discover who the person was that the saw whenever we talked. I remember tears. I remember coming back to the computer a few days later and that picture was still there. In my ‘minds eye’ I was till 31 years old not 54 years.  And did that take some getting used too as well! To tell the truth it was as though some total stranger was looking at the outside world and giving me a screen view of what was happening.  Meanwhile here was me entrapped. Not even knowing I was not the one looking out through my eyes. ILater I learned that this was synonymous with an Autistic version of Post-Traumatic-Overload.  The total close down of everything.

Back to the photograph there I was catching a bus down to the town and buying a mirror. When at home there I was in front of the computer talking to Steffen again.

Often when people want to experience vision impairment[ blindness] they are given a cover over their eyes and lead around. Then through touch, they get to experience their environment. Steffen reversed this process.  With him on Skype, and myself with the mirror, he took me through my memories of who I remembered me physically being.  Through facial touch we discussed the differences. including the difference in hair colours. Gray had come in there.  Now I looked like my mother… just 25 years earlier who looked like I did then.  Talk about confusing. And yes we do look similar.

Memories and gradually replacing the ‘me’ from my past with superimposing the ‘me’ I saw there. Getting to know the feel of who was the ‘me’ on that day.

And then I slept again for a few days in between. We used the ‘sleep it through ‘time as to know when my mind was ready to get to know me once again.  Simple basic steps that were allowing my body and mind to find a balance within the overload.

Now, through many things, here I finally am at 56 years of age writing “I accept ME”.

After all, who am I to argue with the Master of everything.

Sincerely

Susan

Reach out to me on susan@autismasagift.com

or for business related matters  ; susanlewis@susanlewismarketing.com